Grateful to Have Stuff to be Grateful For

At work today I was browsing one of my favorite sites Marc and Angel Hack Life and came across these words of wisdom:

Satisfaction is not always the fulfillment of what you want. It is the realization of how blessed you are for what you have.  It’s not that everything will be easy or exactly as you had expected, but you must choose to be grateful for all that you have, and happy that you got a chance to live this life, no matter how it turns out.

Lately I have been feeling a bit consumed with the feeling of “wanting” things.  I guess it’s not bad to want things – as long as it doesn’t make you feel bad about all that you don’t have… but I have been feeling a little emo about my have-nots.  It’s a horrible feeling.

I was grateful to come across this passage today – it gently reminded me to count my many blessings… and there are many.

You can read the full post here. <3

Loving My New City


So it has been a little over 2-months since I moved to Charlotte and I can’t believe that I haven’t posted or shared any photos on the blog. Tracy and I had a fabulous farewell brunch and we somehow managed (with very little help) to get all of our worldly possessions packed into one U Haul and hit the road.  I was able to find a job within my first week and have been keeping busy to avoid feeling homesick.  Charlotte is so beautiful… I am truly falling in love with her quiet sex appeal.  I will admit that I have had a couple of almost-break-downs… but they were quick and ended without bloodshed.

I have been exploring Charlotte’s many amazing restaurants, had a picnic in the beautiful Freedom Park and have just been taking in the sights of my new city.

What I love my most about Charlotte though is that somehow… almost magically… the move has made me… slow down.

Affirm Your Greatness!

It was Henry Ford who said, “Whether you think you can or can’t…you are right.”

Well you know that negative thinking will get you nowhere, right?  Why not start your day with positive affirmations that will not only make you feel good about yourself, but will set the tone of your mood for the day.  If you feel invincible, you will be!

When you wake each morning, while you are lying calmly in bed, while you’re applying your make-up, while you’re walking the dog, or driving to work, take a few minutes to recite some positive affirmations such as these:

Example Affirmations

Affirmations for Health

  • Every Cell in my body vibrates with energy and health
  • Loving myself heals my life. I nourish my mind, body and soul
  • My body heals quickly and easily

Affirmations for Abundance

  • I prosper wherever I turn and I know that I deserve prosperity of all kinds
  • The more grateful I am, the more reasons I find to be grateful
  • I pay my bills with love as I know abundance flows freely through me.

Affirmations for Love

  • I know that I deserve Love and accept it now
  • I give out Love and it is returned to me multiplied
  • I rejoice in the Love I encounter everyday

Affirmations for Romance

  • I have a wonderful partner and we are both happy and at peace
  • I release any desperation and allow love to find me
  • I attract only healthy relationships

Affirmations for Weight Loss

  • I am the perfect weight for me
  • I choose to make positive healthy choices for myself
  • I choose to exercise regularly

Affirmations for Self Esteem

  • When I believe in myself, so do others
  • I express my needs and feelings
  • I am my own unique self – special, creative and wonderful

Affirmations for Peace and Harmony

  • All my relationships are loving and harmonious
  • I am at peace
  • I trust in the process of life

Affirmations for Joy and Happiness

  • Life is a joy filled with delightful surprises
  • My life is a joy filled with love, fun and friendship all I need do is stop all criticism, forgive, relax and be open.
  • I choose love, joy and freedom, open my heart and allow wonderful things to flow into my life.


Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can.  ~Danny Kaye


Excuse Me While I Get Centered!

It can be so hard sometimes to stay centered when so much is going on around me. Distractions seem to be everywhere and without even realizing it my mind strays away from what’s really important – ME.  Funny how it almost sounds selfish, but if I am not running like a well oiled machine then how useful can I really be?

I noticed that my tolerance is kind of low lately.  It is exhausting to constantly listen to oblivious people complain about their lives.  Why is this happening to me?  What did I do to deserve this?  When will I ever have some good luck?  Nothing good ever happens to me? Blah blah blah. I posted on Facebook the other day, “Would you like some cheese with your whine?”  I didn’t get much of a response though LOL.

I realize though, that it is my job to put up that invisible barrier and block out all the negativity.  I can’t allow other people’s misery to affect my balance… and lately I have been feeling terribly imbalanced.

I think dealing with RA has also made it hard for me to listen to people blabbing about things that they can in fact CHANGE.  I know it’s a bit cliche… but it’s a great saying nonetheless… SHIT OR GET OFF THE POT.  Either you are going to do something about your problems or you’re not, but for the love of God… STOP COMPLAINING AND PLAYING THE VICTIM.

I picked up a book that I read years ago, Happiness Now, and started reading it again.  I need to get centered and sometimes diving into a book that helps me examine myself is just what I need.

So I guess people will have to just understand –  it’s not that I don’t care – but my focus needs to be on me.

What are some thimgs that help you get centered and balanced?

Ready or Not Charlotte – Here We Come!

Public Storage, Charlotte NC

We did it!  We reserved our storage unit in Charlotte, North Carolina.  The boo has already had a  job offer and I am sure others will follow.  It won’t be long now before I am calling Charlotte home.  I am excited and scared and totally out of my mind… but somehow I feel at peace with this move.  I love NY with all of my heart but I am telling myself it’s okay to love someplace else as well.  And I do… love Charlotte.




Our Unit

This is our unit… all 10′x15′ of it!

Lucky Number 26!

Well I don’t know if it’s my lucky number, but it is my birthday… I’ll take it as a good sign! :)

I am looking forward to documenting this amazing journey.  New York has been my home for my 34 years of life and leaving will not be easy.  I know what I will miss most will be the many wonderful friendships that I have cultivated here, but I know those friendships will withstand the 600+ miles that I am going to put between us.

Who doesn’t want someplace to stay in a beautiful city like Charlotte? :P

Pain Medication: A Necessary Evil

So these new meds I am on have me feeling a wee bit weird, a tad bit emotional and have catapulted the quality of my dreams into another realm.  I hate the idea of a foreign substance altering how my mind and body function… but it is a necessary evil.  Last night I tossed and turned for hours – I was incredibly uncomfortable and restless, but oddly enough my dreams just seemed to pick right up where they left off.

Tonight I am going to a Meet Up group to meet some others that suffer from autoimmune diseases and chronic pain disorders – should be interesting.

If only this were all a dream nightmare.

Will This Turn Into a Rheumatoid Arthritis Blog?

If things continue the way they have been, yet it will.  This unwanted addition to my life has seemingly become my life.

I am struggling to find the lesson to be learned in this.  It is finally time for me to put all of my positive psycho babble to use… and I just can’t seem to find the silver lining.  I am going to have to shell out over $500 per month for health insurance because the system is so fucked up. I just started taking meds for Fibromyalgia which may help ease some of the pain associated with the RA, but it will do nothing to help with the symptoms and progression of it.

The daily pain and limitations are truly humbling and mind blowing.  It is starting to sink in… this is real.

Today I thought reading blogs of others with RA would help, but it only scared the shit out of me.

Do you or anyone you know have RA?  If so, share your/their feel good remedies!



Heartwarming Story: The Undeleted Message

I came across this little story while surfing blogs and found it really touching.  Funny how just a few sentences can be so powerful.

Today, after my daughter’s funeral I was going through my phone deleting all the condolence messages. There were so many of them that I simply selected ‘delete all,’ but one message didn’t delete. It was the last message my daughter left me before she passed and it was marked as ‘new.’ Sometimes my voicemail forces me to listen to messages before I can delete them, so played it. She said, “Hey dad, I just wanted to let you know I’m okay and I’m home now.”

Timing is everything in life.  He listened to the message at the perfect time.  A small comfort for his aching heart.


My Forty Minutes with Nik Mohammad

I walked on the Q train, tired and achy after a night out with friends and was lucky enough to find a seat.  I was so anxious to sit that I didn’t realize I had sat down next to a rather smelly homeless man.  I sat for a minute and contemplated moving.  Just when I had decided to make a move, he turned to me and said, “You smell nice – sorry, I know I smell bad.”  My heart sunk.  How could I move after that?  I couldn’t.  He went on to say how much he enjoyed the scent of  a woman.  He said he hated to smell women that drown themselves in cheap perfumes.  He seemed disgusted as he said it.  I laughed.  His name was Nik Mohammad; he was an older man from Afghanistan.  He told me about his travels and how he lost his entire family in bombings.  I held my breath in intervals as he spoke because he seemed to be enjoying having someone to talk to for a bit – and I was enjoying hearing his stories.  I could see once upon a time he was a handsome man, but time and circumstance had left him beaten and battered looking.

He said, “I wish I was younger,” as he kind of gazed out to nowhere.  ”I wish I could meet someone, but I am so tired.  I don’t sleep.  I can’t sleep.  I am very tired.”

It made me instantly sad.  No human being should be deprived of something so basic as sleep… and love.  I could tell he was very lonely and in pain.

I told him I only had two more stops to go and he said, “No no no – don’t say that.”  I dug into my wallet for some singles and he begged me not to.  He said he wasn’t talking to me because he wanted money. I told him it would make me happy if he took the money.  He said,”I am very shamed.”  I placed the money in his hand and he wished me many blessings.

I happened to have the perfume I was wearing that sparked our initial conversation, in my bag.  I took off my Pashmina and spritzed some perfume on it.  I told him I wanted him to have it.  He looked at me with a huge smile and shook his head as if to say he couldn’t accept it – but he did.  I prepared myself to get off the train.  He thanked me profusely and told me that Allah would bless me.

Although I felt very sad leaving him, it made me happy to think that maybe I sparked a little happiness inside of him – even if just for a forty minute train ride.





It’s As Simple and Difficult As This









Never stop loving…

The process of growing…

The art of loving…

The joy of learning…

The face in the mirror…


…Forget the question…


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