In a Nutshell – RA is Ruining my Life

Today is a bad day.  I woke up this morning and my ankles hurt so bad and were so weak I could barely stand.  I try so hard to stay positive, but every once in a while, I break down.  Today I just want to give up and let this disease have me because it hurts too much to move… to fight… to lie to myself and say everything will be okay.  In a handful of months it will be one year that I have been struggling to walk, open bottles, put on my own bra, work, etc.  I am so incredibly tired.

I know there are things that I should be doing to lessen the pain –  but it’s so hard.  NO drinking and NO normal food… basically NO social outings that involve food or liquor.  *sigh*  I want to get better, but I also want a life.

I’m just sad today.  I know it will pass and my glass will seem half-full again.  But for today life feels pretty sucky.

Vanessa xoxo

  1. No matter how bad your pain, please know that YOU and your source of strength (from wherever it derives) are a huge inspiration to others who don’t have to live with the pain you do, but also may not always appreciate how much of an effort it takes for you to have a normal life some days. I see you still doing you through it all and for that reason you inspire. Never stop, never give up.
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  2. I heart you Telle. Thank you as always for your words.

  3. This made me incredibly sad .. Although I don’t have RA a dear friend of mine did ,, and I know how difficult it can be .. Stay Strong and Positive … and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for you :)

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