Phase II


Sunday was an interesting day.  I was alone… which wasn’t bad…  but I felt lonely.  I felt uncomfortable in my own skin.  I felt lost and confused.  I didn’t understand why I was so overwhelmed with all these unpleasant emotions.

Then it hit me.  It was the first time since I became a mother at fifteen that I had NOTHING to do and no one to attend to.  But the most disturbing thing was… no one NEEDED me.  I felt purposeless, useless and just incredibly sad.  My mother said I was experiencing empty nest syndrome, and that it was natural.

It was kind of like going through detox.  I am so used to being needed… and I guess that is a very satisfying feeling for a nurturer like me.

I am transitioning into this new phase of my life.  Going into uncharted territory where my responsibility is to take care of ME.  To nurture MYSELF.  To attend to MY unattended goals.

My writing. My art. My craft… that is what needs my attention now.

It is a bitter-sweet celebration as I enter into Phase II of my life…  but I am excited about all that is in store for me.

 

 

 

 

Vanessa xoxo

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